Awakening of the Inner Child

I had an epiphany while analyzing how adamant I was re:my decision to excommunicate the friend I recently visited and a few other seemingly close relationships that disintegrated because the were based on a function on a foundation of shared toxicity.  What these situations have in common (because these people are very different in presentation and experience) is that they triggered a feeling I associate from my childhood that feeling of being purposely shut out because of the depth and intensity of my intuition and perception of what was going on en my environment and with my loved ones.  The fear held by others (which I later internalized) of being vulnerable, of being seen AS vulnerable (or worse weak), and the shame these people and relationships fostered in association with intimacy as an extension of that vulnerability because it requires the willingness to allow someone to see all of oneself for better or worse.

 

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