So I’ve Been Bullet Journaling…

And I must say that for me, its both productive and meditative.  I have tried coloring mandalas (which I enjoy, but don’t do enough to make a notable difference). I have fought a pretty constant struggle with self-discipline, financial responsibility, and self motivation in all areas of life.  A lot of these issues stem from a journey to restore stable and autonomous self work and confidence. Even more of it has to do with a lack of understanding my own powers of manifestation and the laws of energetic exchange. I’m working on it *insert eyeroll emoji here* Anywho, I discovered BUJO by accident on Pinterest … Continue reading So I’ve Been Bullet Journaling…

2018 Personal Mantra

In the last year planetary energy (specifically the Leo/Aquarius Nodal change and eclipses and the end of my Saturn return), combined with my personal pursuit of internal peace through shadow work, emotional growth through release, and spiritual study and evolution has provided me with some eye-opening, game changing, and ultimately necessary truths.  The insights I’ve come into continually increase both in depth and value, while ultimately putting into perspective those blind spots in my experience that keep me from evolving beyond them.  Personal will and action, self worth, discernment and effective assertive communication repeatedly have come up as issues w/which I must … Continue reading 2018 Personal Mantra

Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

After writing about LOML, I feel kind of melancholy realizing I’m capable of the love I was given by him in my own way, but unable to express it to the one person most deserving of receiving that from me. I know now that my expectations of this person being “the one” create the feeling of loss I’d spent so much time lingering in. The lesson really was to learn my own capacity to love and the need to accept in equal measure what I know I am able to give. I’m more than thankful to his influence because I … Continue reading Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

Chance Meetings & Synchronicity

I am so ecstatic about all the connections I’m making within the healing, the lessons the confidence and renewed vigor for deep diving into myself! I am embracing through experience the connectivity… oneness of the universe (I know it sounds corny to some but really) of all living things and my optimism and openness are increasing exponentially as a result. Yesterday, I went to the bookstore and was trying to connect to the wifi which wasn’t working. So I gave up and proceeded to look into a sequel to a fantasy novel I’d been looking for. Eventually I got bored … Continue reading Chance Meetings & Synchronicity

‘Rolling in the Deep’

So a ‘friend’ essentially stopped talking out of the blue without an explanation after being kind of testy beforehand.  I asked for an explanation repeatedly and was ignored and when the person finally decided they wanted to communicate, addressing the maltreatment wasn’t on their agenda. So now, there is no communication. Frankly, I don’t expect this sort of maladaptive response to processing his emotions is going to change nor do I expect that this person will accept responsibility for the way this affects others, so I’m cool with not talking.  Some people prefer people who disregard them until thaat’s no … Continue reading ‘Rolling in the Deep’

“Accountable”

I’m aware I really miss what I thought I saw. I invested in an illusion born of impatience, projected my desires onto someone w/similar issues to mine instead of becoming the person I truly desire to attract and accepting that energy when it presented itself… I failed in that too. It wasn’t yet my energy to reflect. Certainly I hadn’t taken responsibility to become what I demanded. I jumped quickly into requests for intimacy, failing to set boundaries, clarify intentions, speak on expectations. When red flags appeared I continued giving benefits and effort instead of asking questions, verbalizing perceptions, self … Continue reading “Accountable”