Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

After writing about LOML, I feel kind of melancholy realizing I’m capable of the love I was given by him in my own way, but unable to express it to the one person most deserving of receiving that from me. I know now that my expectations of this person being “the one” create the feeling of loss I’d spent so much time lingering in. The lesson really was to learn my own capacity to love and the need to accept in equal measure what I know I am able to give. I’m more than thankful to his influence because I … Continue reading Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

New Moon in Leo 7/22-23: What is Abundance to Me?

“The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.” – Oprah Winfrey An abundant life is one that is balanced, where holistic healing and abundance is present. That means stability in all major areas of life. As this is my birthday season and a double new moon, I feel my power to create my desired lifestyle by setting my intentions and taking small, consistent steps will allow me to heal and manifest in a way fitting of my potential. So here are my goals for this Solar Return year… Financial … Continue reading New Moon in Leo 7/22-23: What is Abundance to Me?

Selfhood & the Pursuit of Happiness

Ev’ryday, I grow like vines wild, always stretching past limitation.   I’ve been actively reflecting writing daily, and studying myself, others, connections and separations and upon review, I have to say I’m proud of who I’m slowly becoming because I’m more conscious and therefore in control of that becoming.  I’m practicing the art of self-awareness, self-control, and self-creating. I know that clarity re: my identity internally and externally determines the heights to which I soar creatively and in the material realm. I am really manifesting myself at this time, and trying to remain optimistic about the potential to reflect that … Continue reading Selfhood & the Pursuit of Happiness

‘Rolling in the Deep’

So a ‘friend’ essentially stopped talking out of the blue without an explanation after being kind of testy beforehand.  I asked for an explanation repeatedly and was ignored and when the person finally decided they wanted to communicate, addressing the maltreatment wasn’t on their agenda. So now, there is no communication. Frankly, I don’t expect this sort of maladaptive response to processing his emotions is going to change nor do I expect that this person will accept responsibility for the way this affects others, so I’m cool with not talking.  Some people prefer people who disregard them until thaat’s no … Continue reading ‘Rolling in the Deep’

Slow & Steady Revival of the True Self

I’ve been feeling more and more a sense of authentic and deserved confidence in myself as an individual and in the path I’ve chosen to pave for myself and embark upon.  I am no longer afraid of not knowing what’s ahead.  I recognize my own ability to create healing from whatever circumstances I encounter.  I got a tarot reading today that confirmed I am to be both healer and teacher (which is basically the gifts/purpose I’ve been feeling called toward combining), moreover that as I heal and explore my spiritual ancestry, I will awaken skills from the past.  In addition … Continue reading Slow & Steady Revival of the True Self

Releasing to Make Space for Receiving…

Lately, I’m beginning to get more clear on what I need for growth and fulfillment in all areas of life.  I’m being forced to recognized and accept that while frustrating and often painful, releasing ideas, material things, and even some relationships that no longer feel oriented toward growth and healing is necessary.  It’s a learning lesson and embodying the lesson is a stage in personal evolution. I’m no longer contradicting my desires or compromising my boundaries in the interest of immediate gratification or people pleasing.  I know here are still lessons re: both of these issues for me.  Self-sabotage is … Continue reading Releasing to Make Space for Receiving…