So I’ve Been Bullet Journaling…

And I must say that for me, its both productive and meditative.  I have tried coloring mandalas (which I enjoy, but don’t do enough to make a notable difference). I have fought a pretty constant struggle with self-discipline, financial responsibility, and self motivation in all areas of life.  A lot of these issues stem from a journey to restore stable and autonomous self work and confidence. Even more of it has to do with a lack of understanding my own powers of manifestation and the laws of energetic exchange. I’m working on it *insert eyeroll emoji here* Anywho, I discovered BUJO by accident on Pinterest … Continue reading So I’ve Been Bullet Journaling…

2018 Personal Mantra

In the last year planetary energy (specifically the Leo/Aquarius Nodal change and eclipses and the end of my Saturn return), combined with my personal pursuit of internal peace through shadow work, emotional growth through release, and spiritual study and evolution has provided me with some eye-opening, game changing, and ultimately necessary truths.  The insights I’ve come into continually increase both in depth and value, while ultimately putting into perspective those blind spots in my experience that keep me from evolving beyond them.  Personal will and action, self worth, discernment and effective assertive communication repeatedly have come up as issues w/which I must … Continue reading 2018 Personal Mantra

Saul: Knowing Yourselves is a Major Aspect of Your Awakening Process — Era of Light

What you disparage and dislike about yourselves is your egoic side, the part of you that judges, and then condemns what it judges.  But that is always self-judgment, even if it is disguised by being projected out onto another whom you perceive as wrong, bad, or misbehaving by the standards that you have set for yourselves as the right way to live and behave.  Standards that, as you perceive them, you are always falling short of.  And that perception is frequently so painful that you bury or deny it, and then turn your perception outwards to judge and condemn others, … Continue reading Saul: Knowing Yourselves is a Major Aspect of Your Awakening Process — Era of Light

My Life, the Hashtag

Today, I’m in a better mood although my childhood friend and Instagram both implied (rather similarly) that I’ve got nothing to lose in reaching out to LOML in an attempt to clarify the issues that led to our falling out. I believe my fuck-ups and the perceptions of them were not really in line although I can certainly admit responsibility for our disconnect. I’m simply going to quote the IG because it kind of stung in a triggering way and reminded me of the underlying truth of the issue between he and I. @mindfulmft That’s great if you love me … Continue reading My Life, the Hashtag

Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

After writing about LOML, I feel kind of melancholy realizing I’m capable of the love I was given by him in my own way, but unable to express it to the one person most deserving of receiving that from me. I know now that my expectations of this person being “the one” create the feeling of loss I’d spent so much time lingering in. The lesson really was to learn my own capacity to love and the need to accept in equal measure what I know I am able to give. I’m more than thankful to his influence because I … Continue reading Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit

Chance Meetings & Synchronicity

I am so ecstatic about all the connections I’m making within the healing, the lessons the confidence and renewed vigor for deep diving into myself! I am embracing through experience the connectivity… oneness of the universe (I know it sounds corny to some but really) of all living things and my optimism and openness are increasing exponentially as a result. Yesterday, I went to the bookstore and was trying to connect to the wifi which wasn’t working. So I gave up and proceeded to look into a sequel to a fantasy novel I’d been looking for. Eventually I got bored … Continue reading Chance Meetings & Synchronicity

New Moon in Leo 7/22-23: What is Abundance to Me?

“The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.” – Oprah Winfrey An abundant life is one that is balanced, where holistic healing and abundance is present. That means stability in all major areas of life. As this is my birthday season and a double new moon, I feel my power to create my desired lifestyle by setting my intentions and taking small, consistent steps will allow me to heal and manifest in a way fitting of my potential. So here are my goals for this Solar Return year… Financial … Continue reading New Moon in Leo 7/22-23: What is Abundance to Me?

Warning… I’m about to vomit…

…a series of shadow work journaling and stream of conscious (SOC) posts that I’ve neglected to edit/publish from the past 6 months or so. I’m not sure how many of my followers follow my personal journey and how many follow for the astrological and poetry content so I just thought I’d warn ya so you can ignore if disinterested. I’ve come into a few epiphanies is this inner healing/outer manifesting/accountability journey now that I’ve willfully decided to move out of the internalized limits I’d allowed to permeate my entire life. I want to share my lessons, but also to give … Continue reading Warning… I’m about to vomit…

Selfhood & the Pursuit of Happiness

Ev’ryday, I grow like vines wild, always stretching past limitation.   I’ve been actively reflecting writing daily, and studying myself, others, connections and separations and upon review, I have to say I’m proud of who I’m slowly becoming because I’m more conscious and therefore in control of that becoming.  I’m practicing the art of self-awareness, self-control, and self-creating. I know that clarity re: my identity internally and externally determines the heights to which I soar creatively and in the material realm. I am really manifesting myself at this time, and trying to remain optimistic about the potential to reflect that … Continue reading Selfhood & the Pursuit of Happiness